Anxiety about future plans

Hi all

I'm (22, X) currently undergoing interviews to find out if I have autism or ADHD. But one thing is for sure: I hate make decisions regarding my future.

I grew up in a abusive household, and moved out at 17 years old to another country. I've been studying journalism here for 4 years now, but it's coming to an end. And to be really honest, I don't know if I like journalism that much. It's a lot of stress and plans that change, which is hard to deal with for me personally.

So I'm now at the point of my life I HAVE to make a choice: - Do I study for another bachelor's degree (psychology), stay in the same dorm with my partner (which is a HUGE help mentally and physically) BUT work my ass off to be able to pay everything - Or should I look for an apartment and a full-time job (pro: no stress about studying) (con: not being able to live with my partner anymore, cause they can't afford it)

I've been having so many nightmares about it and tbh it's made me feel like my life is about to be over. It's a bit dramatic, but this turning point is my last chance to be happy. And I really don't know which option would make me happier or even healthier. I overthink everything, multiple times.

I just want a break man. To have some space to breath and figure it out in my own terms and time, but it feels like I'm being suffocated by the pressure of having to choose.

Yesterday I also went to see a counselor to discuss my financial situation (in hopes to get a clearer image of my options) and she was so rude. She kept saying I "don't need to stress about it" and that "my parents surely want to help me" (they don't). Even though I explicitly told her I have to make a decision asap. Cause my landlord from my dorm needs to know in march if I'm gonna be renting the dorm next year too. I was there to see which options were available, but she was insulted by my emotions (sadness that the options suck), and she said that "you have to know that finding a solution within 1 hour is impossible, you don't need to be so sad". But like, I can't help that I am human and I have emotions and I wasn't even looking for 1 solution. Urgh.

TLDR: I feel stressed about choosing "the right" option for my future, everything depends on this choice. Studying or working, living with or without my partner. And the counselor lady was rude.

I there anyone who experienced the same (kind of)? Maybe some advice would be REALLY helpful <3 To have some other way of looking at the problem. Thanks in advance