Not feeling love towards friends. Does anyone feel similarly? How do you experience emotions?

I enjoy spending time with friends but i dont have deep love for them. I see ppl grieving for their friends if they lost them etc. I cant understand how someone can grieve the loss of a friend. It is not like you lose your parents or children. I dont know, i think this is because im incapable of loving and caring for them deeply, if they were to die, i wouldnt grieve over them. I know what grief feels like cause i lost my mom two years ago and it was very hurtful.

I just want to know how other people are with emotions? I feel like my emotions are in a cage and my inability to feel deeply prevents me from feeling connected to people.

Would love to hear your experiences