Kissing /Making out

Man it’s just so awesome. Sometimes I think back and feel I took all those kisses and makeouts for granted. I’m grateful for it all, what a blessing to take something for granted, to even have it in the first place. Moments of disbelief, that they want to do this with me, and only me.

I haven’t kissed or made out with anyone in a casual sense in years (is that even a thing? casual make out buddies?). I’m craving the physical intimacy but at this point I’d probably develop feelings if I found someone who wanted to kiss.

I wouldn’t mind making out with my crush, I’d be ecstatic as a matter of fact. I’ve always had crushes and I still do, but then there’s sex and love, the ultimate escalation. Sex as a concept has evolved for me as I’ve been maturing, it just feels different now.

If you couldn’t tell I’ve never had casual sex, so I don’t know how’d I’d even react if things were to go further than kissing. Kissing just feels like the right spot for me right now. Cliche whatever but the idea of kissing someone in real life gets me more excited than when I think of having sex. Maybe because it feels simpler to me, less… pervasive.